Having played close to 600 professional football matches I never envisaged that a global pandemic would bring my football career to a temporary halt. Months just keep ticking by and still no sign of when I will continue my playing career, to say I’m desperate to get back onto the pitch is an understatement as the need to satisfy my competitive edge grows. A big part of my career was my time at Luton Town and the 178 appearances I made for the club. Playing at Kenilworth Road is special, the atmosphere the passion; I loved every minute of it and still do to this day. The commitment I made to the club to move my young family 200 miles away from close family and friends was probably the best footballing decision I ever made. Gary Sweet played a huge part in this; he made me feel wanted as not just a football player but a human being too. I owe him a lot for not only making the move happen but sticking by me through a career-threatening injury that could have easily finished me. To this day I continue my daily life with a metal rod and screws inserted in my right leg however due to the support I received from the club and my own determination I can continue playing the game I love. The managers I played under at the club I learned so much from them all not least Nathan Jones. Having not had the privilege to come through at a football academy he coached me in a way I had never been coached before and I often think what might have been if I had met him earlier in career. I tend to need a bit of time to win a manager over and I think that was the case with John Still and Nathan. I wouldn’t say I’m the easiest on the eye to watch but I’ve always tried to work hard on my game whilst always giving everything I had.
Part of the reason I never wanted to leave Luton was that I knew more success would be inevitable and I am not dissimilar to most other players in that I hate losing so to be a part of a team pushing for promotion is what I wanted. I also have this inner belief that on my day I am better than anyone so I am quite stubborn when it comes to being told otherwise but as I have got older I have learned to deal with the brutal nature football can sometimes bring. Before I would often get angry and rage and feel like I would need to train harder as I have always had a feeling of needing to prove people wrong. I have learned to try and channel this anger in the right way on the pitch.
Seeing Luton in the championship is fantastic and it’s what the town deserves. Having commentated on the game at Leeds and the game the other day at Huddersfield I could see the fight and desire in the players to keep the club up and I am confident if the players and staff continue to work in this way over the next three games then survival can be achieved. There are still players at the club who I played with during my time such as Danny Hylton, Glen Rea, and Pelly Ruddock and it is great to see these guys competing at this level. Pelly was always one I hated training against as despite being only a young lad when he came he was so much naturally stronger and quicker than me I felt the only way to stop him was to foul him!!! I remember me and Luke Guttridge speaking after a 5 nil win away at Alfreton in the conference we both said with this guy in the middle with us no other team will touch us. Credit goes to John Still for recruiting talent like Pelly and many others. Hylts brings a desire that you need as he’s got this edge about him that you can’t teach and I have mentioned before he is one of the best strikers I have played with.
One of my favorite moments in the famous orange shirt was my full home debut against Wolves in the FA cup 3rd round. We destroyed Wolves that day and with help from the crowd played at an intensity they couldn’t deal with it. I won man of the match but in truth, Andre Gray should have received the award as he ran the Wolves defence ragged that day. The Atmosphere inside Kenilworth road was unbelievable and for sure there was only going to be one winner that day.
Another special moment came for me at Hyde away on the final day of the conference winning season when four months to the day of a potential career-threatening broken leg I made my reappearance back on the pitch. The ovation I received that day still sits with me and I can’t thank the Luton fans enough for that as it was special. The work I had put in through those four months to get back was relentless and to be appreciated like that on the final day meant the world to me. It gave me huge motivation to hit the ground running the following season. Fortunately for me, I haven’t had an injury since that day and bar suspension been available for every single match since through my time at Luton, Stevenage, and Chesterfield. I think that’s why I have played so many games throughout my career as I never miss through injury.
I am currently playing for Chesterfield FC in the national league and still love it. We have a recently appointed new manager in John Pemberton who has a similar style to Nathan and has got the team playing much better football so I am excited to see what the new season will bring. It’s a big club for the level however as most Luton Fans know the national league is brutal and you have to be tough to stand up to the physical nature of the league.
Luton has a tough game this evening against another former Premier League team. Luke Amos plays in the midfield for QPR and is one to watch having played with Luke at Stevenage I know the qualities he has. Three points tonight would no doubt put Luton in a fantastic position going into the final two games so I look forward to seeing if they can get a vital victory.
All the best!
Smudger!


